Jealous?

Jealous? ME?! of him?!
NO. couldnt b. nverrr.
he's not even mine. i dont own him.. (even tho he says i do..) psh.. tricked into believing stupid lies and false compliments.
tzz. ellie ellie.. u just let urself get hurt like this.. *sigh*




no. im not talkin about who u think im talkin about.

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ive got my offer from Carleton University, Canada. :D yay!! first offer from canada. duno if im gonna go or not. overall Canada will b WAYY cheaper than UK but.. i dunno if the course will b better.. and i hear some ppl say tht canada, esp around ottawa, is just rlly dull and boring :(

Carleton? the campus virtual tour

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In lit class today we were talkin about the purpose Churchill was trying to make.. and in the end, the overall conclusion is that there is no such thing as perfect contentment because as humans, we will always be comparing ourselves to other people. one character, Griselda, was perfectly content with her situation until she heard the other character's stories, which is only when doubt enters her mind.. so if all humans were equal, in a socialist society, and there was no competition and comparisons, then everyone would b happy.. but then there would b no development in the world.. and we'd b stuck in one era. so wat then? do we strive for contentment and happiness or do we strive to improve ourselves and the world we live in? its arguable.. since the main purpose of improving and bettering ourselves is so that we can find happiness. its just all one big circle... and bcuz we are human.. we are nvr gonna settle for being equal.

i think we should give up. because essentially, there is no such thing as happiness and there is no such thing as success because in the end, we're all alone and there will always be something we need to give up and miss out on.

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oh a very side note... i keep seeing him in my dreams, even when i try distracting myself with other things >.<" someone save me.. im startin to rlly need him.